The Gracie Pearlpeace★

When peace in your life get disturbed  You feel the whole world are plotting against you right now Noon as night and night as noon When everyone rest their body you just started your day, you're exploring part when nothing's awake You're stranded and lonely, you try to reciprocate but you keep loosing your feet You body losing the time, you can survive the day without food but you'll die without sleep But at night you'll need energy and will die doing nothing. You wonder that this is the right punishment for whatever sins you've done You want to go back and find whatever anchor you're standing with but you've lost too far away. You've gone missing. You try to drink as much as you need when you're with your faithful friends, but it's hard to just show how broken you are. Afraid to look unappealing while you're already a nobody You still afraid to lose the one and only face you're wearing right now And it's maddening, how can God se...

May, I have lost my senses Summer in June's heat dried me up Loud cricket on July been bothering my peace It's such a mess, I'm a mess September, first rain start pouring down After the drought you brought upon my heart River finally flows again, it's so vivid The cold wind that I've been missing since 2022 I finally back to my senses Have you feel it? The cold wind after rain. Realest rain I've felt after long summer with you There's no sadness only tranquility It's so peaceful here, and I found myself Let me get soaked by the rain I'd rather let myself catch a cold Than catch another feeling I can't detour This cold doesn't hurt me, I feel alive Like a fish longing for the sea A dramatic hydrangea with it's love for water Sand and wind, clear sky and sun, no clouds to be seen You're like the sahara, the only place in this world I can't stand. You think I can adapt and willing to live as a succulent my whole life. But I don't...

I keep repeating the same song for over a month I keep it on to put heavy stress on my head Remind me again and again how I don't deserve you Or you don't deserve me How I regret not being kind to you  Or how I regret why you would try to get close and suddenly you spit me out from your thought  I'm mad, I've been blaming you and myself Everytime I feel happy I put a song that will always have you to haunt me I turn up the volume until it destroy my hearing Let me go deaf, or blind, mute whatever it is that makes me stop feeling you. Day goes by, you found your one and I'm here repeating my new habits again and again until I can't tell if I'm numb or lost my mind, but if being insane mean I can't feel you anymore then so be it Don't feel happy, I wish you to bear the sin and the guilt for making me go down this path. Forever be happy with your girl, but I know my sin will always haunt you till death do you appart.

Currently in the making hahah Beberapa lagu udah banyak yang selesai, ada beberapa yang lagi proses bakar otak buat cari nada yang enak. There going to be 2 albums... About a journey of what happened to me these past few... I dunno weeks? I guess. Aku juga bakalan kasi penjelasan orr teasers about what this song is about... Aku bakal up track listnya dulu sih belum full lirik. Anyway here you go! "Path of One Self" 1. Spotlights  2. Regret meets Fate 3. Path of One Self 4. The ending 5. Duality Okkey bakalan aku jelasin teasers lagunya, untuk album ini fokus ke Life after break up haha apakah explisit? I try my best to supress it down, but I can't promise it will be completely clean. But again I'll try Spotlights.  Di lagu ini lebih kayak coping mechanism ku buat ngelupain si ex dengan cara inget2 lagi my actual worth, dan inget kalo selama ini yang dia lakuin bahkan kata2nya ke aku itu sebenernya gaada maksud yang bikin aku baper malah normally aku bakalan sakit hati...

Hari ini... Aku harus berterimakasih sama diriku sendiri karena kuat :'D jujur aslinya gak kuat... Jam ku geter2 nge-alert High HR... Wkwkw 136bpm gak tuh? Rasanya lemes, kepleh, kayak orang linglung, tapi aku harus sembunyiin, aku harus tahan aku harus bisa ACT NORMAL   And oohh isn't it the toughest thing I've ever done when it comes to my condition? Pengen nangis? Wah pengen banget Pengen marah? Pengen Pengen ngamuk? Apalagi itu Tapi... Again. Grace harus bisa kuat dan tegar, karena kalo gak bisa jadi bahan bulan2an nanti. I hate it there. Tbh. Tuhan, Grace sudah berusaha semaksimal mungkin untuk bertahan, tapi ini udah gak kuat. Aku pulang duluan. Hide myself in the room. Trying to find my peace. Makasih ya Grace, buat senyum dan kuatmu yang kamu paksakan. You've done well. Thank you, myself.