Nocturn Night (Explicit)

When peace in your life get disturbed 

You feel the whole world are plotting against you right now

Noon as night and night as noon

When everyone rest their body you just started your day, you're exploring part when nothing's awake

You're stranded and lonely, you try to reciprocate but you keep loosing your feet

You body losing the time, you can survive the day without food but you'll die without sleep

But at night you'll need energy and will die doing nothing.

You wonder that this is the right punishment for whatever sins you've done

You want to go back and find whatever anchor you're standing with but you've lost too far away.

You've gone missing.

You try to drink as much as you need when you're with your faithful friends, but it's hard to just show how broken you are.

Afraid to look unappealing while you're already a nobody

You still afraid to lose the one and only face you're wearing right now

And it's maddening, how can God send help if you keep masking your darkness?

At night you can't sleep

Sitting on your couch looking outside the window 

Staring at nothingness

Dreams stay as dream

Everyone is reaching the dream you've always dreamnt about

And you're one of that many percentage of people who are being labeled as a failure

"Congratulations" are the only word you wouldn't hear from anyone directed at you

The people who wronged you keep getting richer

The people who hates you finally get their degree

The people who are once also your victim are doing great

All you wished at them for their future and all their wishes for your future are now colliding.

You have becoming the person as the results.

Sad, ironic, wasted

Wanted to pray but your lips too dry

Wanted to sing but your voice got stuck

Wanted to read but your eyes is too hazy

Your body twitching from all the tiredness

Starting to lose my will to live

Supported by a lot of bad new around your world

If anyone is hating something or someone you are probably their biggest reason?

The whole world plotting all this wars and corruption because they hate you

The propaganda are there to make your life suffer even more.

You have gone missing

And keep losing is your only way